我已經，沒事了

心痛的感覺已經不再蔓延下去

已經漸漸的消逝去了

沒事了

真的沒事了

一路走來

有太多的事情

總是強制性的往自己塞

使用了自己消化的方式

因爲害怕
畏懼心碎

而做出的選擇

久而久之
所做的一切
就慢慢的
成爲了生活的一部分
就是所謂的習慣了


不管怎樣....

我現在，已經沒事了....

好.... 失望

沒有期望，或許就不會有失望了，對吧？

但是為什麽，要給了希望后，才來通知，說：“抱歉，你不是其中的那一位。”

為什麽？

當初，要是當初，一點都不渴望就好了。

可是已經太遲了。

這一切，都已經發生了；這一切，都已經是事實了。

什麽都改變不了。

只能默默地承受，那一股濃郁的悲傷及失落。

眼淚不再慢慢滑落，而是湧著出來。

只能慢慢的舔著受創的傷口，一點一點地，壓映著好似跌入谷底的情緒。

失望？失落？和失神？

然而結果也只能沉默不語。

還是沒有改變些什麽。

什麽都沒有。

我說了傷悲，並非什麽事都沒有。

只是不懂該從那裏說起....

也因爲事情不大，即使很想找人哭訴，喉嚨卻會不由自主地，停止了發音。

什麽都說不出來了。

什麽都得自己消化了。。

繼續加油吧

幹嘛要怪別人呢？

在那之前是不是已經問過自己，“努力了嗎？”

與其在那邊怨天尤人，還不如趁機追擊，加把頸才對啊！

後悔已經來不及了，過去的一切就只能以人生的遺憾來看待了。

讓所有的遺憾，成爲讓自己進步的精神糧食，向前邁進。

加油！

要不斷地對自己說。

因爲還怕鬆懈下來的心情，所有要時常有所覺悟。

加油！

因爲自己不夠堅定的決心，所以要時常有所警惕。

加油！

這一切得來不易，畢竟一生人也只有一次的機會，你該不會想要放棄吧？
那也太浪費了。。。 

唉，儅掉了

全軍覆沒，聼過了沒有？
這回真的儅掉了....
哈哈~ （苦笑
又再是相同的原因，我真的是個不知悔改的人。
但是我後悔了！！
這次真的，真的~

一個星期又兩天過去了，心情並沒有變的更好，更輕鬆...
眼看過去的一張張試卷裏，寫著的，可能不叫做答案的答案，有點害怕。
很緊張，很想鬆懈下來，很想放棄....
腦袋是這麽想的，但心裏並不是那麽想。
心裏總會想：鬆懈什麽，待考時后有大把時間給你鬆懈呢！

也對啦！

但是還來得及嗎？
一切都已經快過去了，只剩下一點點的希望了。
還有機會嗎？


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有吧~

過了一個星期

難熬的考試在所有人不停埋怨及打拼中，不知不覺地也已經過了一個星期。

開心嗎？

沒有，悲傷的感覺往往來得更多。

我們都只能微笑...

但是大家都松了一口氣，因爲難捱的，都已經過去了。

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眼睛都腫起來了啦！！

真的好累，好累....

但我們都不願放棄，即使知道自己的記憶已經到了極限，我們還是想要再多看一眼。

因爲多看一眼，勝利就離我們越近。

並不是比別人好，而是比原來的自己，更加好一點點。

或許那樣，就是最大的滿足了。

最後的十二個小時

好壓力好壓力好壓力，好緊張好緊張好緊張。
距離明天也只剩下最後的十二個小時....
用盡全力的在為明天要前往的‘戰場’而作的最後的準備，這是我有史以來那麽的緊張及不安。
雖然也不過是一個考試，但縂不能每一次都那麽的，讓人家失望嘛...
連我自己也覺得遜掉了，看不下去。

加油加油加油，gogogo!!!!

不行啦，還是很緊張~
哎，救命！！！

Just a Dream

Amazing, how did all these happened?

Right, first of all, I was awaken by my phone alarm.

Amazing! The alarm clock works on me… Ha-ha

And second, I was blogging over here, now, morning, 1056 and it’s an English post.

I never did this before, kinda fresh for me… Ha-ha

Thirdly, I dreamt of something.

What??!!

I was chased by someone in the dream, trying to kill me.

Again, the same dream.

I had this dream once, last Wednesday if I’m not wrong. The same “aim” in the dream, which is -- trying to kill me.

Bro said I’m just getting too much pressure on myself, he said if you dream about yourself get killed, that means you’re having pressure on yourself.

Is it true?

Cause I don’t feel like having a lot of pressure at all although…… (there’s still piles of books need to be studied ><)

The dream starts like this…

Everything starts in a classroom I guess, a classroom like the one in my school. There’s a lot of peole inside, male or female, aged around 22 to 25 years I guess.

I walked into the classroom, approaching an empty seat at the second last row, the middle seat.

There’s a man sitting beside me, having white colour long hair and a special spectacle above.

You couldn’t imagine how good looking he is. Ba-ha-ha!!

He talked to me….

Something… I couldn’t recall…

Then there’s three men standing behind at the corner of the classroom, discussing sometheing. They were looking at me, fiercely.

The scene changed, changed to a man with vicious expression.

He was saying something, something started the story of my dream.

“…… Kill that girl……. ”

That man talked a lot actually…

Yup, no doubt, I was wanted in my dream.

Reasons?

I don’t know, the scene skipped, it just lost in nowhere.

But I’ve got a blur picture in my mind, I was talking in the classroom, smiling, then I saw that three men at the corner with stunning expression on their faces….and then no more… Everything went blackout.

The story continue with the presence of mom and sis.

Sis was having her final examination, a weird examination.

Their exams were tested on a person’s patience.

How? Good question!

The patience was tested by letting one staying in a room for some time as the examiner instructed.

Sis didn’t pass her first round test. She didn’t have any patience at all.

So she had to retake it.

By the time, I was there too. That’s weird.

Her second test was tested about….. ???

Mom had to carry sis on her back, walking from one end to another of the swimming pool.

They were in the swimming pool, and so am I. Why am I inside there too??

We passed the second round test, exhaustingly.

After they came out from the pool, sis was approaching a clown, which is quite fat.

I reacted fast at that time, stopping them from approaching him but they just didn’t want to listen to me.

They said it’s alright.

Alright? There’s nothing alright! That man was one of the people that came after me!

I try my best to stop before they have any contact with each other and I succeed but with a knock from my sis on that man’s forehead.

He was staring at me.

Straightly, we went back into our room without hesitate.

[We weren’t staying in our house, it’s like a hostel.]

I wasn’t sure that was my heart thumping rapidly that time, I didn’t know.

Before I opened the door, I saw a man standing 45 degree north from my door; he was staring at me too, but in a very weird way. I can feel his eyes like popping out.

I went into the room and closed the door at once.

Later, I came out from the room in a rush and knocked into the police’s room.

But I didn’t succeed.

There’re doors (gates too) after doors before one can get into the real police’s room.

I knocked over the first door and I saw a gate in front of me.

What are they so scared about? Do they need so many defenses?

Failed to knock in, I shouted outside.

I wanted to make a report about those killers that were coming after me but the officer just laid-back and said that that had no concerned about him.

He’s not willing to help me with those killers. He said that’s my own problem.

I questioned him what if someone dies innocently? He had nothing to fight back.

I went back to my room but before I step in, I announced loudly, “If the killers are coming, any of you will be their first aim, not me.”

At that moment, there’s only silent.

Now, I was in the room with the light lit up.

Suddenly, someone was knocking on the door. NO! should be bumping on my door and pushing towards.

He almost spoilt it!!

An aperture is formed due to that person’s mighty strength.

He was also one of the killers.

I tried to push the door against that man so that the force will be balanced.

He spoke at the time, “where do you want to go?” with a wicked smile hanging on his face.

I shouted back, “...Cambodia….”

He flashed away with someone on him which looked like mom.

I was nervous; I unlocked the door and followed him with my phone left behind on my table.

I was too nervous!

I chased until a mall, some spot at Queensbay I guess.

Then I saw sis there too.

Gosh! What’s happening?

She was running too until suddenly a man pulled her away and ran in front of me…

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There’s no ending for this story, it’s just a dream.

看戯

瘋掉了，一天裏竟然看了好幾部戯...

我知道，假期過後的暴風雨正等待著我...

我在做什麽啊？？！！！

Scene 1 : Kung Fu Panda

很喜歡Po在給小兔子們講那五個英雄的故事的時候。

每一個故事背後都有值得學習的地方。

雖然Po並不被 Master Shifu 看好，但Po卻經常做出一些令 Master Shifu 難以置信的事情，而且每一次等待著他的都是成功。

Po使用不一樣的方式來讓那些小兔子們了解什麽是Kung Fu...

不是通過伐悶的教學方式，而是運用了講故事的方式來讓他的學生明白什麽叫做 Kung Fu...

Scene 2  ：3 Idiots

這世上沒有天才，有的只是那些肯努力的人。

只有興趣，才能帶領我們去認識我們潛在的才華，然後讓我們走向成功。

當然，成功的到路上除了興趣，才華和努力以外，別忘了還有你的決心和勇氣。

少了那兩樣，也就只是成功了50%

儅你害怕時，將右手放在你的心上，然後說：“All Izz Well”

“它不會幫你克服困難，但它會給你克服困難的勇氣。”

記住咯！加油！

Scene 3 : Avatar

人總會跟著生活的環境而改變，人就是那麽一種充滿感情的動物。

但是在改變之前，我們總是不會去想，在那之前所做的事情到底會帶來怎樣的后果。

我們從來就不會去探索這個問題，因爲我們從來就沒有想過，我們跟本就不在乎。

“後果嗎？ 到時再算。”

到時，是什麽時候呢？

爲什麽要等呢？等，等，等....... 然後就會不了了之，不知道嗎？

我們的生命中有兩個字，叫做“後悔”。

但是後悔之後，就來不及了......

Scene 4 : 王沙野峰

 超舊的一部戯了，其實也不算是一部戯，只是短片而已。

第一次看，應該是小學時期吧。

果然啊，在不一樣的時代看同樣的影帶，就是會有不一樣的感觸，不一樣的感覺。

那時候看，是整場都在笑的；現在看，竟略帶沉重的心情。

爲什麽？一時間也談不上來。

或許是觀看的角度不一樣了吧？好像變成熟了，長大了。呵呵....

只是好懷念，曾經的那一段歲月。

這些戯都已經有自己一段輝煌的歷史了吧。

呵呵，有點慢半拍的我現在才趕上大家，太好了！

很高興，因爲這四部都是很不錯的片子。

應該浪費了不少原本可以用來讀書的時間吧？

沒辦法了....

反正都用掉了，也只能用剩下的幾天來趕上還沒溫完的書了....

哈哈，祝福我吧！❤